i heart E12.

*hoho malacca trip, part of the members only. ;]

I HEART E12.

to think back, back then i was pretty depressed, lost and lonely when i first came to KL ... hmm correction: ever since i was in penang. Many things happened, from bad to worst until i felt numb and indifferent about myself. Im so losing it.

then came one fine day, when Ju invited me to his cell group, E12.

all in all, in E12, i've found my peace and happiness and better yet, my first love and forever He will be.

Throughout the time i've spend wit E12 members, i found myself changed and learned a lot, oh well still learning. HOHO ..

from quiet, lost, cold to the person i used to be - bubbly, happy and warm.

and from this cell group, i've learned to forgive and forget, take critics in positive ways and most importantly, to love one another.

but then as time goes by, we've multiplied to at least 20 people in E12. Praise God, but then ...it's time to part into 2 CG now .. E12 and E36 based on location.
somehow i feel sad about it but happy at the same time ... sad 'cos we're parting into 2 groups now ... =/ and happy cos we've multiplied! hoho ..

oh well, i will miss those funny, loving, warm members i have grown to love more and more each day. XOXO i heart you people. =]

im part of the family,

nana

a missing puzzle.

there is something missing.

i am sure of it.

is it just me or you?

it is not really the same anymore, i guess.

i know and i know, i am not the best that you've wished for.

but i've tried and will keep on trying.

*on random notes: coursework's marks, not bad for this semester. oh well, i shud start studying hoho. sigh. SO FREAKING FAST.

wth.

-_________-

indifferent,

nana.

untitled.

okay, pop goes my ranting:

why can't those who are in a relationship talk to others e.g FRIENDS.
why is it that people will judge you if you talk to the opposite sex just because you are in a relationship? Why people who are in love often get insecure? Why people said they treasure friendship but it goes downhill once they found their partner?

okay, here's what I think and somehow it work best for me:

1. I think is okay to talk to the opposite sex, as long as you know yourself what status you're in e.g: GF, BF or whatsoever title the partner called you. come on la, insecurities, misunderstandings and opinions, let the couple decide and clear it off on their own.

2. As long as the partner knows who the person you are talking to, it's perfectly FINE! Nothing to hide, right?(oh well, imo. ;p)

3. In a relationship, does not mean that you do not have to communicate at all to the world and live in your own fairy tale world thingy ya know. People needs to communicate to others as our life goes on or we are gonna end up like the guy in I AM LEGEND, LOST OF HUMAN TOUCH. so, issit wrong to talk to the opposite sex?

4. Friends are not meant to be treated good when you are single then dumped them aside once you've found your partner and then run back to them when you're out of love. Well, it is like USING people. I believe eventhough you're in love with your partner, there is a time where you can just spend time with friends. come on people, time management!

5. In a relationship, jealousy is there but how you handle them is another thing. TALK TALK and TALK to your partner. In a relationship, it is much more than just LUST and LOVE. Understanding, Trust, Communication (talk when you don't feel right) and Honesty. With this, i bet you can turn insecurity into security.

Partners, loving a person is when you have achieve understanding, it is not how much you have control over the person that you get obssess with your GF/BF that you have turned into a monster. Without understanding, no relationship can go far or move a level higher. With Obssession and Possessive, you will lose the one you love dearly. think again?

sigh, to think of it, why do you want to let jealousy and insecurity replace the love that firstly drawn you to your partner?

alright. phewww there goes my steam .. half dead.

I think i'm done for now. ^*(&%^$%^$^%^&

WTH,
nana

IM NOT DEAD ...YET

hello people,

hoho i'm not dead yet ...

just that i've caught a LAZY bug which prevented me from doing anything which includes updating my blog. hehe

these days i've been procrastinating a lot, constipated and lazy.

oh wells, UPDATES UPDATES UPDATES.

1. THANKS MUMMIE for renewing my passport so i can go for holidays. woot woot ... S'pore & Phuket, HERE I COME. XOXO

2. THANKS PAPPIE for an awesome dinner for me bday. XOXO

3. THANKS Alan for being such a sweet popcorn. He gave me a Mickey tote bag for pressie. awesome ,seriously. hugs.

4. THANKS E12, for the wonderful jacket i've been drooling on for weeks =]

Most of all, thanks for being such a lovely cell group that no matter how emo i am, you ppl just cheered me up. <3<3

okays, the happiness ends there and stresssness(??) starts here:

MY FINAL EXAMS STARTS ON 28th APRIL!!!

so the demotivated now ... but have to start studying or my pappie is so gonna kill me and there goes my holiday.

NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO WAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY !!!

i'm SOOOoooooOOooo not gonna let that happen.

alright, for my holiday trips, i'm gonna work my butts off.

/put on specs.

byebye lazy bum, hello misonerdie.

BWAHAHHAHAHAHHAHAHAHHAHA.

couldn't-care-bout-nething-but-HOLIDAYS,

nana

HE'S GONE ...

Hello Peeps,

sorry for lack of updates. Had many things on my mind now ...

i've lost someone dear to me ...

my godfather whom i'm close to, sorta my 2nd dad.

when i heard the news of his death,

im flooded with sadness, regrets and emptiness.

i know and i know that, people will die one day ..but it's hard to accept the reality of it when it hits u, all of a sudden. i though i was fine, until i saw him, lying there in the coffin ... and i know, when i greet him ..he will not answer back. he's gone, forever. hence this post, im gonna dedicated it to him, my loving and uber funny godfather, Jimmy Lim.

Dear ah Leh,

all these while, from the moment ah Bo accepted the offer of babysitting me, you have showered me with love and care. You have treated me like your second daughter. I remember those time ... each time you came back from sailing, you would take me out ...and spend time with me and ah Bo.

I remember ... when i was in kindergarten, you wake up early in the morning just to prepare my breakfast, which is our favourite, AMERICAN BREAKFAST. those sunnyside-up eggs, hams, toasted bread, sausage and orange juice. Then, you would send me to kindergarten on your old honda bike with me in between u and ahbo.

i remember ... those days when I always whining on going out, buy this and that and you would just gave in to me ...i remember those time when you would just sat there on the bench looking at me playing in the playground ...i remember those time when u would just sat down there and looked after me when i'm cycling.

i remember ...those time when each time you came back from sailing, you would bought me gifts and gave me money when you, yourself not enough to spend.

i know, ah leh. i have never spend much time with u ever since i've got to college. and i'm regretting it still, now. how i wish i can turn back time but ...i know i cannot. It broke my heart the last time i saw you ...as u looked ...shrunk and withering away. i know ...you would be leaving us soon but i always hope for not that soon.

ah leh, for the time i've lost, i will spend more time with ah bo and ming jie. I will, i promise. Cos i know deep down, no matter how many times u have argued with ah bo and even jie, you still love them and cherish them ...and i will for sure, take care of myself to make you proud of me as i live on my days. take care there and enjoy your "sailing", captain. I Love You, and the memories of us ...will live on ...in my mind ..and my heart.

love,

siewsiew.

it's painful to accept the fact that ...

i won't get to see him, touch him or hear his voice but then he is there ...in my heart,im sure.

sorry, such a sad post. im still ...emo-ing.mourning.grieving.whatever.

lost-in-the-memories,

nana.

TO JESSICA CHAI :)

This post is dedicated solely to JESSICA CHAI. :)

HAPPPIEEE BURFDAYYYY!!!

sorry la, wishing u later a bit haha but still i got heart to purporsely dedicated this updated to you because you know la, i'm such a busy girl here, so seldom update my post.

hence, i've decided to update 'cos IT"S YOUR B'DAY ehhehehehe!!!

anyways, here's goes the song:

HAPPIE BURFDAY TO YOU,

YOU ARE BORN IN THE ZOO,

WITH PAPA BEAR AND MAMA KANGAROO,

HAPPIE BURFDAY TO YOU!!!

GOD BLESS:)

without a further ado, here's your pressie from your LOVING sisters and bros - ME, SIMMY, JU and JOSH:

HAHAHAHHAHAAHHAAH just in case you din read pohsim's blog, so i've posted here.
LOADS OF LOVE FROM US. :) huggies!!

MISOEVIL,

Nana.

SO NOT ME.

i'm emo-fied.

i don't what exactly bothering me but im just, emo and confused.

heck, i feel like an oddball.

the more i think of what-might-happen-next, the more i do not want to face it ... i don't like changes in me. If is good, that's great. If it's bad, i'm doom.

Ppl who are older than me, no not the grandpa-old,OLD. but ppl with experience already, ppl who are socalled out in the REAL world told me that people will change when they started working which i am quite agree to it. i've seen how a person can turned totally rotten pumpkin once they get the glitsy position or some rotten pumpkins inject their virus into their blood vessle and WAHLAH, generated a new rotten pumpkin. haahahahahhaha

anyways, my point is ...

I DO NOT WANT TO BE THOSE ROTTEN PUMPKINS.

I WANNA BE FRESH JUICY PUMPKINS.

lil miss emo,

nana.