7 mile

" we can make a million of promises,
but it won't make any difference,
cos, we're never gonna change."

he said, she said.

i've been wondering, am i selfish?

is it wrong feeling suffocated when people sorta expect me to spend more time with them when i feel like i would love to have my own personal time?

or am i just being plain selfish and inconsiderate?

some people would make a big deal out of it.
all i want is some personal time. wrong?

sigh. i feel so bad.
i'm a witch.
definitely.

if online also wrong, i dunno wad to say adee.
lazy.

life is not a fairy tale.
i'm just a simple practical girl.
not your typical girl who's hoping for a prince.
/snort.

these days, i'm :
constipated.
frisky.
cranky.

oh book, book where art thou, book?
i need to grab couple of books and lock myself in a room.
ahhhhh ...bliss.

don't get me wrong people.
i love you people.
maybe i am just having some pms/mood swing.
or tired.
i'm sorry if i ever, EVER upset you people, k?

yours truly,
nana.

because i'm a girl.

oh dear, classes starts today.
sigh.
another crazy semester.
=/

i love rainy days.
i love walking under the rain.
'cos ... by walking under the rain,
noone can see me crying.

on the outside ...
all they see is happy.
so .. let me put on the poker face a little longer.

zombie,
nana.

kau pelangi dihati ini.

"oh teman tak pernah ku lupa,
persahabatan kita,
oh kawan ingin ku bertanya
masihkan kau setia,
kerna kau pelangi cahaya di hati
selepas hujan turun...ohh
kerna kau pelangi di hati ini
selama ini...
ohh..kau pelangi
oh..selama ini
oh..kau pelangi...kau pelangi..
oh..selama ini....

bertahun berlalu tanpa diri mu
masihkah kau ragu
semuanya berubah kini ketemu
apakah daya ku
kerna kau pelangi cahaya di hati
selepas hujan turun..oh
kerna kau pelangi di hati ini
selama ini...
ohh...kau pelangi
ohh..selama ini
ohh...kau pelangi cahaya di hati
selepas hujan turun..ohh
kerna kau pelangi di hati ini
selama ini....."

::izzy mohamed - pelangi::

this song is uber addictive ... and it makes me teary. i love this song to bits.

sighhhhh ..
lets just say that this holiday ...is sorta lifeless.
books, cuppa hot choco and sofa.
online - msning & mangaing.

seriously, not in the mood to get out of my comforting cave.
and then ...
many things hit me ..real hard.
many many things.
im a happy girl, really.
but i dunno ... i feel like i've been walking in a circle.
round and round and round it goes.
tears feep flowing down ...neverending.
im gonna get dehydration soon. lol

mistakes ... i've realized it but somehow i tend to repeat it again.
i've learned but again, i repeat it.
why so? im wondering.
if i were to ask for forgiveness for each repeated mistakes, i think He would be very upset and malas nak layan me adee.
lol

lovely, this blog is like turning emo again.
/snort
but heck, is my blog neways.

but peeps, don't be confuse. i am seriously a happy girl. ^^
is just ... i tend to think a lot at times. when i'm, alone especially.
BWAHAHAHAHHAHAHA ...
ciao.
xoxo

a song for me,
nana

call me Princess, thank you very much. :)

this post inspired by kon-kon.
as we were chatting in msn, he said "hmmmm, i just thought about something last night, you're like living a reverse-harlem anime drama."

LOL

truthfully, i ain't that pretty or some girl that pop-out from FHM.
but to me, it's personality that counts.
perhaps, little did i know, my personality actually attracts these people.
oh, grow up. stop snickering, laugh or snort, you people.

LOL

i'm no angel but i do love making people enjoy my company when i'm with them.
hence, i'm unpredictable and mad.
full of madness, sakainess and oh yeah, i'm cheeky.

and oh, these people(read:guys) actually made me realized a few stuff 'bout people and life.
hoho sounded deep but yeah, i think i actually use my brain to think a while instead of oozing around the house. hell yeah, im the pro oozer here. and i'm sure somebody would happily second that sentence. XD

i would like to say im glad i've bumped into these people that ...emmm ...:

>> saved me from my confused self and overcome my tainted past.
>> shows me maturity and to talk using my brains instead of boobs.
>>made me realized that everyone deserve a second chance and not being judgemental.
>>reminded me that long distance relationship needed full commitment and trust.
>>reminded me that guys are also human and yes, they're also emotionally weak at times./pats i'm here, aight. xoxo

p/s: and i think, kon kon ... true, i memang live in reverse-harlem world. LOL
alahhhhh you also enjoy my madness whenever we hang out la. donk.

i'm a happy girl.
roar!

o-hime-sama,
nana.

Funeral for a friend.

seriously, i just don't get it.
she always contradict her words and when she knows that she's wrong ...
she'll start saying hurtful words.

she is the one that kononnya encourage sharing problems and talk to her when i'm having confusion or whatsoever.
but when i did have such situations, there she goes ... blames, calling me names, shoot me with MK-16 and gave me the i-told-you-so look.
and oh, favourite bullet - relate my not-related matters to my faith & beliefs.

sometimes i do wonder, why do i even bother to please her?

im out of ideas.
im so worned out.
im numb.
and heck, i don;t freaking bother anymore.
BIAK PI.

okays, done ranting.
hey,hi. byes.

dilemma dotter,
nana.

are you in or are you out?

you're such a bothersome prick.
no, you're not celebrity and couldn't care much about you, aight.

urgh, hmm..i'm convincing myself that i do not care when it is so bloody obvious that i care about you which is partly the cause of my massive headache.
(dramatic a bit =P )

shoot.

it is totally weighing me down like an elephant on my head and ..heck i felt like the gravity is three times the force.

i am trying so hard to stand back, and have the guts to just look at you in the eyes and says, "hey,hi ... i'm GOOD, you greenish sticky booger." with a Doh-face.

but sadly, things or words that we've prepared in mind to screamed at THAT particular person, it'll just dissolve into thin air when THAT person stand in front of us.

what a joke. where's all the fume, mahn! come on, this is not happening ...

it is because of THE EYES, THAT BLOODY EVIL EYES ...

somehow it may sound cheesy, as for me ..eyes sometimes reflected how you feel inside. and no .. i have not gone cuckoo yet and im no psychic.
is just ... my gut feeling. hence, i'm indeed a soft hearted person who will just ...forgive and forget.

aight, so it happens here that ...

whenever i look into your eyes, i know you still cares.
whenever i look into your eyes, i know you've a special place in my heart.
whenever i look into your eyes, i know that no matter how you treat me, im not mad.at all.
whenever i look into your eyes, i know that you'll put a smile on my face when in fact, im crying.
whenever i look into your eyes, i know that your action speaks louder than words.

so, wa-lah. there goes the the fume ...
there goes the hatred ...
there goes the constipated look that's constantly on my face when all those anger bottled up inside ...

magically, POOF! everything just turned plain simple and comforting.

oh bugger.

can someone just bloody shoot me already?
seriously.

on random note:

tra la la la~

i'm a happy girl, alas! =D

nachos ...my source of happiness, for now.

/blek

murderous look,
nana