" Just Dance/Da-doo-doo-doo."

it's been a while since i've blog.
lol
dead blog, whatta do ...
im having writer's blog for months ..
turning book hermit that's it.
i need some inspirations ... but none.
hence, i just leave it as it is.

updates aye ..
been juggling between work & studies ...
nothing to shout about ...
but hell, Starbucks is much more fun than any of my previous jobs.
seriously.
/dead-pan face.
like they said,- The experience.
lol
it's been months since ... it happened.
to think back, im pretty much cruel
but heck, rather than drag things on, i made a decision.
a decision that conceived of tears, pain and remorse.
but it's for the best.
for you & me.
i believe.

as of now, my feeling pretty much like how a nomad feels ...
where & when i wanna leave .. i just leave.
move on day by day to see how things goes on.
i know of your grieve and suffering, but it is bits and parcels of growing up.
i know, call me a bitch but i learned it the hard way as well.

im wondering.
im wandering.
im pondering.
im stoning.
i wonder, how things will turn out ...
there is nothing you can show me or assure me ..
im always left outside alone.
it shucks.
but, im used to it.
how long do i have to hold on?
how high is my patience level that u intended to test on?
frankly speaking, im scared of you.
you, beast.
i guess ... you won't do anything because u are having the best of both world.

im feeling tired of all this shit.
when the time comes... i'll leave.
damn, my poker face comes in handy when in times like this.

till then ... /plays lady gaga - just dance.
Just dance. Gonna be okay.
Da-doo-doo-doo
Just dance. Spin that record babe.
Da-doo-doo-doo
Just dance. Gonna be okay.
Duh-duh-duh-duh
Dance. Dance. Dance.
Just dance.

aight ...till the next post.
i guess i'll be updating much often cos im feeling pretty much emo.
wth ... this is an emo blog, im living up to the standard.
rofl.
toodles people.

screw it, nana

" don't speak."

nothing much to say.
uneventful much.

it's a dead blog till i get my own bloody line.
hence, the m.i.a

and karl, u better visit my blog eventhough it's dead.
bwahahhaahhahahahaah!!!

toodles.

" ngao."

por laew.

chun mai yaa fang.
chun mai yaa roo.
brod yaa tam hai chun ruk ter.

khun mai mee hua jai.
khun jai rai.

por laew.

" i'm feeling crappy."

WHAT.THE.HELL.

pfft!
i despised those people who called people NOOB.
hello sunshine, you( those inconsiderate pricks) have been a noob before alright.
you've started from scratch as well...hunt this and that and what not ... killed this bloody monster and some cockroaches ..hence, you pricks are not in the right place to bloody show off and calling other ppl who are new to it NOOB.

it's is FREAKING annoying when i'm playing and enjoying the game halfway when all of a sudden i got stamped with the noob title ...JUST BECAUSE i am new to the bloody game and all of it.
and just because i cannot seem to understand some parts of it.

so what if your character is way higher lvl?
i can get there as well ...bugger.

and oh by the way, to those who take game seriously like it's a matter of life and death and worst, simply scold/curse people just because your team lost or the big boss kicked your team's asses,
you're simply childish and mad.

game itself is very entertaining until it got ruined by you lots.
game itself is for ppl to have fun and enjoy it until it got ruined by you lots, again.
game is for ppl to know another person (MMORPG games, especially)*sing song voice*
BOLLOOOOOCCKKKKSS!!!!! pure bollocks.
*rolled eyes, sarcastic tone* oh right, is for PPL to curse/scold/called ppl noob and etc.

okays, done ranting. but i'm still boiling mad.
urgh!

&%^&*^$*(&()*$)_()_($*^&*@^*(#*)@(_$(@)&$^*(&%^@*()$(_#)&*)_+#%*@)(!!!!!!!!!!!

pissed,
nana

" what a feeling."

hey,hi.

been pretty busy.
ho-hum.
i'm a ice cream seller now. lol
free ice cream everyday = heaven.
YUMZ.

i feel so shitty these few days. totally.
writers block. totally.
feeling indifferent. totally.

oh yeah, loving the song - something stupid from Nancy Sinatra feat. Frank Sinatra ( or was it the other way round?)

" I know I stand in line, until you think you have the time
To spend an evening with me
And if we go someplace to dance, I know that there's a chance
You wont be leaving with me

And afterwards we drop into a quiet little place
And have a drink or two
And then I go and spoil it all, by saying something stupid
Like: I love you

I can see it in your eyes, that you despise the same old lies
You heard the night before
And though its just a line to you, for me its true
It never seemed so right before

I practice every day to find some clever lines to say
To make the meaning come through
But then I think Ill wait until the evening gets late
And Im alone with you

The time is right your perfume fills my head, the stars get red
And oh the nights so blue
And then I go and spoil it all, by saying something stupid
Like: I love you
(I love you, I love you,...) "

yeah, something stupid like i love you.
=/ hmmmmm ... =/ =/=/=/

lol
random betul.
well, it's because i seriously don't know what to write.
any suggestion?
Karl, if you're reading this, suggest a bit la ...you curious creature.
g'night.
till next post.

tataz.

shrugs,
nana.

a walk in the park.

loving someone is scary.
it is so scary that when the person left you all alone, you'll get hurt, crumble and bitter.
hence, self-pity, self-blame and self-mutilation.
brrr ../shivers.

you'll get heartache ,
then crying nonstop,
then shutting yourself from the world,
then anger,
then hatred,
then hurting yourself
and at the end, you'll feel indifferent. totally jaded.

see how scary it is?
i don't think i can love someone so much that i'll get obssessed with him. lol.
imagine, i'll be like totally into this guy that ..somehow my life revolves around him.

O.O!!!!
i don't want to go there.
but then ...
love is only a feeling ..
which cannot be control.
if i fall in love, i fall hard.
/ouch

i still think that life goes on although being dumped or broke up.
hmmm ... well, it does hurt a lot but it is not the end of the world. There are much more important stuff than this.
now, don't tell me that i don't understand. I do have quite a few heartaches here and there. Is just ... how you deal with it instead of self-pity.
at the end of the day, our happiness does not depend on people.
He is the source of love. to me, imo.

random: i love the picture. funny. /snort.

im here for you,aight?,
nana.

7 mile

" we can make a million of promises,
but it won't make any difference,
cos, we're never gonna change."