" what goes around, comes around."

short story:

there he is thinking, he's on top of the world.
People are just his minions where what opinions he have are right and the best.
there he is doing, doing things that exceed a person's expectation.
People are just there to fill up his lust and conceited actions.
there he is talking, and it's all about self-praise.

Even with all his conceited actions and perceptions, he still thinks that it's not fair it happen to him.
It's unfair when people gets back at him and it's unfair when things are out of his control.

voices say, " Do unto others what you want others do unto you. There's always a cycle where what goes around comes around."

He just ignored the voices and still doing what he do best - being ignorant and conceited.

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totally AWESOME.
great results, i would say 'cos never expected that i would totally scores the subjects.
kudos to me. XD

oh good lord, 3 more months.
3 freaking months.

writing stories is a damn good time filler but i can sense my writer's block hitting me soon.
lol

jumpy me,
nana

" Lazy summer days."

short story:

Past midnight as they went for a walk, wandering aimlessly.
he said, " i love the cold breeze tonight."
she nodded. He hold her hand tightly as they walked on.

It was a long walk before he turned and looked at her,
and said " I hope one day, I can say the three magical word to you, but I'm sorry i cannot do it now."
she lifted her head slowly and looked back, straight into his eyes that full of uncertainty.
again, she nodded.
then, she muttered, " I'll wait for that day."
He saw the sadness that lingers in her eyes.
He holds her hand even tighter.
They continue walking down the road and wondering when would that day be.

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Cafe Del Mar music, one word = AWESOME.
currently hooked on Elcho - Lazy summer days.
This song is certainly addictive and once i've heard it, im hooked. replaying the song for kezillion times already.

Heck, M'sia is either hot weather or rainy days. i would love to go to some beaches for summer.Not to mention, SUMMER DRESSES. XD
simply just sun tanning, beautiful sunset, good music and obviously great company.

" Memories of yesterday
Can't think about it ...nothing but you
Never gonna fade away...
Even if you disappear from view...

Sweet distraction...you're always on my mind
Sweet distraction...same feeling every time
Clear intention...just wanna make you mine
Sweet distraction...same feeling every time

Lazy summer days...wash away
Under the spell of soft summer rain
Lazy summer days...wash away
Under the spell of soft summer rain
We are all same

Memories of yesterday
Daydreamin' all when i held you close
Doesn't matter what you say
You were the one i wanted close

Memories of yesterday...

Can't thing about it
Nothing but you

Lazy summer days...
Lazy summer days...wash away
Under the spell of soft summer rain
Lazy summer days...wash away
Under the spell of soft summer rain
And we are all same .."


easy breezy, nana.

" Deeper conversation."

short story:

he said, " i admit, i have feelings for you knowing you're flirtatious."

she said, " i understand your feeling but is not mutual."

he said, " i am confused, but the feeling is there and growing."

she said, " Don't fall for me, i'm heartless. Guys are like t-shirts to me, that are to be change when it gets old or torn. I can do anything to make the game seems real."

he said, " People said i'm stupid for showing over the top care for you. Stupid for being there for you all the time when you're down because you will never look my way."

she said, " i cherish you in a different way, but it is not the way that you've expected."

he said, " i'm speechless and my mind went totally blank because i cannot keep up with you. You're beyond what i've expected."

she said, " this is me, hence i told you off, don't fall for me."

dead silence.

she said, " you're better off without me."

with that,she turned, walked away and never look back.

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a very calm and soothing song dedicated to someone faraway ... deeper conversation by Yuna, local artist. her voice is awesome ..calm, soothing and soulful.

Is your favourite colour blue?
Do you always tell the truth?
Do you believe in outerspace?
And im learning you

Is your skin as tanned as mine?
Does your hair flow sideways?
Did someone took a portion of your heart?
And im learning you

And if you dont mind
Can you tell me
All your hopes and fears
and Everything that you believe in
Would you make a difference in the world
I'd love for you to take me to a deeper conversation
Only you can make me

I let my guard down for you
And in time you will too

if you dont mind
Can you tell me
All your hopes and fears
and Everything that you believe in
Would you make a difference in the world
I'd love for you to take me to a deeper conversation
Only you can make me

Deeper Conversation
let me

on random notes: i am still craving for caramel popcorn, mind you. thank god, that this year passes by so fast with a blink of an eye ..is already may, which mean i am graduating soon ..woohoo! excited moving to a new place, it's a nice apartment ... a place i can call home at last. silence, peaceful and blue sky. Now this is what i call, HOME.

hosea's wife,
nana.

" midnight coward."

in the room, it's certainly love at first slightly drunk.
you used to be someone that i cannot keep up with.
excuses. plain immaturity. distance. playful.
hence, it just ends there with a simple silence for 6 months.
6 months later, you walked back into my life.
but with my back facing you, you were shunned by the coldness.

3 years, you've proven me wrong.
3 years, effortlessly trying to reach me.
3 years, you're a changed person.
3 years, you were right there in front of me.
3 years, i kept a distance between us.
3 years, suffocated with the feelings inside.
but now, i am someone you cannot keep up with.
what's your middle name?
how do we play this game?

3 months later,
when you're within my reach.
show me.
show me that things will turn out great.
reach out to me.
convince me.
i'll look your way once again.
and i will walk back to you with an open arms.

i can see what's coming,
but i'm not saying it.

roller coaster ride in the mist,
nana.

" so silence, no violence."

I've learn to lose
I've learn to win
Turn my face against the wind

I will move fast
I will move slow
Take me where I have to go.

it's funny how it seems to be real but it's unreal.
emotions definitely can make you delusional.
emotions can break one down.
don't believe it?
try let your emotions get to you and you will know what i mean.

but then, once you get hold of it, you're winning the game.
you'll see beyond emotions, you'll see truth. you'll see reality.
you'll see the white background instead of a black spot in the middle.

im building a concrete heart, a shield against it.
a shield that once get me through everything.
Just sunshine
And blue sky
This is all i get
For living in here.

back to basic ... sunshine and blue sky ...

laughter beats everything in the world,
nana

revived.

I took too long to move out from the monster side of myself.
it keep bottling up till one day, it just burst.
and i always thought i am strong enough to handle it,
i'm strong enough to move on and i won't let the monster get hold of me.
i guess i was wrong, totally wrong.

instead of me controlling it, it took control of me.
i lost it. totally lost it.
until a point, i became the monster itself and it scares practically everyone away. people used to look at me with loving eyes, but now people look at me with frustrated eyes.
people used to love my company, but now people avoiding me because all they see is my misery and grief.
it's too heavy that they decided to ignore and let me be.
they found bliss in ignorance.

i realized... and i know whether i like it or not, willing or not ..i have to put a stop to it.
i don't wanna end up building a shield that push people away and having self-pity all my life.
that's when the fun-loving soul inside of me surfaces.
all hell break loose. and now i am picking up the pieces.
it's just like playing WoW.
i am leveling up my confidence to face myself.
to get back to life. to appreciate life.

this post i really wanna thanks these few people that practically smacked me back to reality. these few people are true friends that will never give up on you .. that will never leave u behind and walk ahead...that will keep smacking you till you're awake. these people are so dear to me although, yes we do not really hang out previously but they are there, when you need them. at least ..they are there for me when i am broken.

Jolyn's poem and words acted as my guidance to leveling up my confidence and face it instead of ignoring the problems that are just right under my freaking nose.
James and Maya's patience ...encourage me to gain back the trust that i've lost and thrown aside.
Wai mun's unconditional care and sayang ...that shows me that they are still a lot of people who care.
Julian's spiritual words and prayer.
Nick and Kris ..made me a smiling minnie and encourage to turn back my life into a colorful and fun just like Disneyland. in order to see a smiling Mickey, i have to be a smiling Minnie. (pfft!!)

yeah, these people are very dear to me. thank you for bringing me back to life.

i learned my lesson and yes, the Sabrina is back and enjoying life to the fullest.

to hell to the particular person who took everything from me, because i am back and stronger than ever. You robbed enough 2 years back. you might think you've won, but too bad. i'm still alive.

still alive,

nana.

" Amaranth "

"Baptized with a perfect name
The doubting one by heart
Alone without himself

War between him and the day
Need someone to blame
In the end, little he can do alone

You believe but what you see
receive but what you give

Caress the one, the Never-Fading
Rain in your heart - the tears of snow-white sorrow
Caress the one, the hiding amaranth
In a land of the daybreak

Apart from the wandering pack
In this brief flight of time we reach
For the ones, whoever dare

You believe but what you see
You receive but what you give

Caress the one, the Never-Fading
Rain in your heart - the tears of snow-white sorrow
Caress the one, the hiding amaranth
In a land of the daybreak

Caress the one, the Never-Fading
Rain in your heart - the tears of snow-white sorrow
Caress the one, the hiding amaranth
In a land of the daybreak

Reaching, searching for something untouched
Hearing voices of the Never-Fading calling

Caress the one, the Never-Fading
Rain in your heart - the tears of snow-white sorrow
Caress the one, the hiding amaranth
In a land of the daybreak

Caress the one, the Never-Fading
Rain in your heart - the tears of snow-white sorrow
Caress the one, the hiding amaranth
In a land of the daybreak"

KARL! awesome song, check it out,aight.

i just can't wait for sem break.
planning another trip ..where to go aye ..
bangkok?
jakarta?
singapore?
aust?

aust sounds like a good idea .. hehehe ..
seriously need a long break,
been such a crazy sem as well as working part time ...
although im enjoying working in starbucks to bits.
crazy, joker, madness and nonsense partners!
they're so cool that if to compared them to Ferrari, Ferrari lost hands down.
woot!

im so crossing my fingers that i can finally pass my idiotic Intro to Marketing.
it's seriously madness subject ever ... hated it, never like it ...LOATHED it.

learned that no point hovering on something that does not belong to me.
hence, im going back to my love - WoW.
/kissies

sigh .... hafta drag my heavy butt to revise those monstrous marketing notes.
wish me luck, if i cannot survice it, hope i can float thru it. LOL

ciao people.
you know you love me,
xoxo

sun and moon,
nana