Monday, October 13, 2008

a walk in the park.


loving someone is scary.
it is so scary that when the person left you all alone, you'll get hurt, crumble and bitter.
hence, self-pity, self-blame and self-mutilation.
brrr ../shivers.

you'll get heartache ,
then crying nonstop,
then shutting yourself from the world,
then anger,
then hatred,
then hurting yourself
and at the end, you'll feel indifferent. totally jaded.

see how scary it is?
i don't think i can love someone so much that i'll get obssessed with him. lol.
imagine, i'll be like totally into this guy that ..somehow my life revolves around him.

O.O!!!!
i don't want to go there.
but then ...
love is only a feeling ..
which cannot be control.
if i fall in love, i fall hard.
/ouch

i still think that life goes on although being dumped or broke up.
hmmm ... well, it does hurt a lot but it is not the end of the world. There are much more important stuff than this.
now, don't tell me that i don't understand. I do have quite a few heartaches here and there. Is just ... how you deal with it instead of self-pity.
at the end of the day, our happiness does not depend on people.
He is the source of love. to me, imo.

random: i love the picture. funny. /snort.




im here for you,aight?,
nana.

6 comments:

Jarod Yong said...

Did someone break your heart?
**hugs**

chubby-monster said...

you know ..u are like my one and only reader. thanks for visiting this emo n lack of updates blog :)

well... not really. but ppl around are like ..having probs with it. 8-S

Dangerous Variable said...

I like that picture... :)

How are you..? Long time no chat..

Karl Lim Eng Hong said...

Yo, not leaving comment doesn't mean didn't read your blog doink. U break my heart lol.

chubby-monster said...

karl oh karl, then u hafta "sek chou" a bit. lol but then, i din leave comments in ur blog also. draw. hahahaha ... =P i'll ask those yuned to mend back ur heart :)

Karl Lim Eng Hong said...

Duh~ check back several post before this and see got my comments or not Ms greeniebuttmonster.