" what a feeling."

hey,hi.

been pretty busy.
ho-hum.
i'm a ice cream seller now. lol
free ice cream everyday = heaven.
YUMZ.

i feel so shitty these few days. totally.
writers block. totally.
feeling indifferent. totally.

oh yeah, loving the song - something stupid from Nancy Sinatra feat. Frank Sinatra ( or was it the other way round?)

" I know I stand in line, until you think you have the time
To spend an evening with me
And if we go someplace to dance, I know that there's a chance
You wont be leaving with me

And afterwards we drop into a quiet little place
And have a drink or two
And then I go and spoil it all, by saying something stupid
Like: I love you

I can see it in your eyes, that you despise the same old lies
You heard the night before
And though its just a line to you, for me its true
It never seemed so right before

I practice every day to find some clever lines to say
To make the meaning come through
But then I think Ill wait until the evening gets late
And Im alone with you

The time is right your perfume fills my head, the stars get red
And oh the nights so blue
And then I go and spoil it all, by saying something stupid
Like: I love you
(I love you, I love you,...) "

yeah, something stupid like i love you.
=/ hmmmmm ... =/ =/=/=/

lol
random betul.
well, it's because i seriously don't know what to write.
any suggestion?
Karl, if you're reading this, suggest a bit la ...you curious creature.
g'night.
till next post.

tataz.

shrugs,
nana.

a walk in the park.

loving someone is scary.
it is so scary that when the person left you all alone, you'll get hurt, crumble and bitter.
hence, self-pity, self-blame and self-mutilation.
brrr ../shivers.

you'll get heartache ,
then crying nonstop,
then shutting yourself from the world,
then anger,
then hatred,
then hurting yourself
and at the end, you'll feel indifferent. totally jaded.

see how scary it is?
i don't think i can love someone so much that i'll get obssessed with him. lol.
imagine, i'll be like totally into this guy that ..somehow my life revolves around him.

O.O!!!!
i don't want to go there.
but then ...
love is only a feeling ..
which cannot be control.
if i fall in love, i fall hard.
/ouch

i still think that life goes on although being dumped or broke up.
hmmm ... well, it does hurt a lot but it is not the end of the world. There are much more important stuff than this.
now, don't tell me that i don't understand. I do have quite a few heartaches here and there. Is just ... how you deal with it instead of self-pity.
at the end of the day, our happiness does not depend on people.
He is the source of love. to me, imo.

random: i love the picture. funny. /snort.

im here for you,aight?,
nana.

7 mile

" we can make a million of promises,
but it won't make any difference,
cos, we're never gonna change."

he said, she said.

i've been wondering, am i selfish?

is it wrong feeling suffocated when people sorta expect me to spend more time with them when i feel like i would love to have my own personal time?

or am i just being plain selfish and inconsiderate?

some people would make a big deal out of it.
all i want is some personal time. wrong?

sigh. i feel so bad.
i'm a witch.
definitely.

if online also wrong, i dunno wad to say adee.
lazy.

life is not a fairy tale.
i'm just a simple practical girl.
not your typical girl who's hoping for a prince.
/snort.

these days, i'm :
constipated.
frisky.
cranky.

oh book, book where art thou, book?
i need to grab couple of books and lock myself in a room.
ahhhhh ...bliss.

don't get me wrong people.
i love you people.
maybe i am just having some pms/mood swing.
or tired.
i'm sorry if i ever, EVER upset you people, k?

yours truly,
nana.

because i'm a girl.

oh dear, classes starts today.
sigh.
another crazy semester.
=/

i love rainy days.
i love walking under the rain.
'cos ... by walking under the rain,
noone can see me crying.

on the outside ...
all they see is happy.
so .. let me put on the poker face a little longer.

zombie,
nana.

kau pelangi dihati ini.

"oh teman tak pernah ku lupa,
persahabatan kita,
oh kawan ingin ku bertanya
masihkan kau setia,
kerna kau pelangi cahaya di hati
selepas hujan turun...ohh
kerna kau pelangi di hati ini
selama ini...
ohh..kau pelangi
oh..selama ini
oh..kau pelangi...kau pelangi..
oh..selama ini....

bertahun berlalu tanpa diri mu
masihkah kau ragu
semuanya berubah kini ketemu
apakah daya ku
kerna kau pelangi cahaya di hati
selepas hujan turun..oh
kerna kau pelangi di hati ini
selama ini...
ohh...kau pelangi
ohh..selama ini
ohh...kau pelangi cahaya di hati
selepas hujan turun..ohh
kerna kau pelangi di hati ini
selama ini....."

::izzy mohamed - pelangi::

this song is uber addictive ... and it makes me teary. i love this song to bits.

sighhhhh ..
lets just say that this holiday ...is sorta lifeless.
books, cuppa hot choco and sofa.
online - msning & mangaing.

seriously, not in the mood to get out of my comforting cave.
and then ...
many things hit me ..real hard.
many many things.
im a happy girl, really.
but i dunno ... i feel like i've been walking in a circle.
round and round and round it goes.
tears feep flowing down ...neverending.
im gonna get dehydration soon. lol

mistakes ... i've realized it but somehow i tend to repeat it again.
i've learned but again, i repeat it.
why so? im wondering.
if i were to ask for forgiveness for each repeated mistakes, i think He would be very upset and malas nak layan me adee.
lol

lovely, this blog is like turning emo again.
/snort
but heck, is my blog neways.

but peeps, don't be confuse. i am seriously a happy girl. ^^
is just ... i tend to think a lot at times. when i'm, alone especially.
BWAHAHAHAHHAHAHA ...
ciao.
xoxo

a song for me,
nana

call me Princess, thank you very much. :)

this post inspired by kon-kon.
as we were chatting in msn, he said "hmmmm, i just thought about something last night, you're like living a reverse-harlem anime drama."

LOL

truthfully, i ain't that pretty or some girl that pop-out from FHM.
but to me, it's personality that counts.
perhaps, little did i know, my personality actually attracts these people.
oh, grow up. stop snickering, laugh or snort, you people.

LOL

i'm no angel but i do love making people enjoy my company when i'm with them.
hence, i'm unpredictable and mad.
full of madness, sakainess and oh yeah, i'm cheeky.

and oh, these people(read:guys) actually made me realized a few stuff 'bout people and life.
hoho sounded deep but yeah, i think i actually use my brain to think a while instead of oozing around the house. hell yeah, im the pro oozer here. and i'm sure somebody would happily second that sentence. XD

i would like to say im glad i've bumped into these people that ...emmm ...:

>> saved me from my confused self and overcome my tainted past.
>> shows me maturity and to talk using my brains instead of boobs.
>>made me realized that everyone deserve a second chance and not being judgemental.
>>reminded me that long distance relationship needed full commitment and trust.
>>reminded me that guys are also human and yes, they're also emotionally weak at times./pats i'm here, aight. xoxo

p/s: and i think, kon kon ... true, i memang live in reverse-harlem world. LOL
alahhhhh you also enjoy my madness whenever we hang out la. donk.

i'm a happy girl.
roar!

o-hime-sama,
nana.